Have you ever found yourself in such a transition in life that you wondered how you got there? How did you feel? Who is to blame or praise? Are you happy?
Each day I wake up, I thank God for the changes he is making in my life.
In the past few weeks, I have seen him move over my life and I could not be more thankful or grateful… You see, what I have come to understand is that when you reach your “darkest place”, and feelings of defeat, and depression, and sorrow, and hurt, and every other dark feeling begins to rise, it is SURLY time to seek the face of the one who can change ANYTHING and EVERYTHING.
When I graduated from college in May, I was excited and nervous to dive into the “real world”. With a degree in tow, and a certificate in the mail, I was convinced that it would not be long before I was standing before students and teaching in a classroom. But as the summer continued on, and I submitted multiple applications, and received disappointing news, I found myself becoming a different person… One less excited, less positive, less optimistic, and more grumpy, more impatient, more depressed.
I began getting extremely sensitive, extremely emotional, and although I would hide my feelings, (because I have the best poker face in the world), it was really taking a toll on me. It wasn’t until one Tuesday evening that everything changed…
I was so flustered from things that had happened that day that I decided to take a walk to clear my mind. It was a gray day, drizzling rain sprinkled my path, but I needed to get out the house and clear my head. It was that gray, dreary, rainy day when God began to make changes in my life…
I cried out to him, and told him of my troubles, my despair, and my frustration. I begged for his mercy and grace, and I asked him to show me what he required of me. I made him a personal promise to make changes in my life if he allow his favor to RE-ENTER my life… That day, my life changed…
I named this post “Two Times the Blessings” because the visuals that accompany this post were taken after my blessing. They are filled with joy, and happiness, and they are real… They are not just poses, they are real moments in life… God has been amazing to me, I just could not continue on with not acknowledging that fact… I’ve been covered in his favor… See?.. 
No wait… There’s more…
Different days… Different outfits… Different hair… but thank God for the same hope, favor, love, and happiness…
If you haven’t heard, allow me to share my newest blessing…
I HAVE been employed for the 2013-14 school year to teach Government and Economics at a wonderful high school with wonderful staff… (You will have to wait for the next post to find out where… I promise it will not be too long of a wait) ;)…
God is alive, and he’s waiting to hear for you… “There is a blessing… With your name on it… GO CLAIM IT…)
Until next time, kisses and more…
-J. NeKole
also known as MS. HOLLY 🙂
Mrs. Clark Gent 